Tuesday, March 9, 2010
I WANNA GET OUT OF HERE!!!!!
Oh my God!!!! Are you kidding me?!?!?!?! Why would someone ask me something like that?!?!?! I wanna get out of here. I wanna leave everything behind me, and never turn back. You know what, I can't help about the way that I look on the outside; I just can't. Everytime that I try to do something about it, it gets worse. I don't know what else to do!!!! I just wanna run away, just keep running and never come back. Right now, I feel like that everyone around me doesn't care about me at all; even my closest, bestest friends. It just doesn't make sense to me!!! WHY HAVE I BEEN PUNISHED LIKE THIS?!?!?! I DON'T DESERVE IT!!!! People don't even act like that I exist. And now I know why. Thank you to all that made me feel like crap for so many years, because of you, you're the reason why I'm not able to change the way I am today.
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
My Troubles of the Day
Have you ever had a time where you think that you don't like a certain guy, but then realize you do? Well, that's kind of what I'm going through right now.
So, there's this guy that I go to school with (not naming any names), and he hangs with me and my friends every morning before class starts, since we don't have a 1st period (heehee :P). My best friend thinks that he's really annoying at times, and thinks that he shouldn't hang with us anymore. Well, of course I didn't want to say anything, I mean, what am I supposed to do? Anyways, I found out a few months ago that he goes to the same church as I do. I mean, we're really go friends and all, and thought that's all we'll ever be. Well, for the past few weeks, I've thought of him as more as a friend. For instance, I know that he can be really annoying at times, and a really big pain in the ass, but to me, it seems kind of....charming.
I didn't tell my best friend about it, because I didn't know how she would react to it. It probably wouldn't matter anyways, because he likes another girl, who likes him back. God, why does that always happen to me?! I always fall for someone who likes someone else!!! Oh well, maybe I should just see how it goes; 'cause I mean, his feelings could change, too....right??
So, there's this guy that I go to school with (not naming any names), and he hangs with me and my friends every morning before class starts, since we don't have a 1st period (heehee :P). My best friend thinks that he's really annoying at times, and thinks that he shouldn't hang with us anymore. Well, of course I didn't want to say anything, I mean, what am I supposed to do? Anyways, I found out a few months ago that he goes to the same church as I do. I mean, we're really go friends and all, and thought that's all we'll ever be. Well, for the past few weeks, I've thought of him as more as a friend. For instance, I know that he can be really annoying at times, and a really big pain in the ass, but to me, it seems kind of....charming.
I didn't tell my best friend about it, because I didn't know how she would react to it. It probably wouldn't matter anyways, because he likes another girl, who likes him back. God, why does that always happen to me?! I always fall for someone who likes someone else!!! Oh well, maybe I should just see how it goes; 'cause I mean, his feelings could change, too....right??
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